Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
I try hard to have change in my life, to in turn, change myself.
I try to be a go-getter, instead of a passive waiter. I know I have personality traits that disadvantage me. I believe in fate, in destiny. I’ve come to believe that I believe in these things too much.
If I put too much faith n dependence on e insubstantial lady chance, I might waste my whole life in vain expectation, waiting at e window instead of stepping outside to e world beyond.
But it's hard, because e one thing I lack in considerably is motivation. I rarely care strongly about anything. I have no destination, no goal. I am in essence, inert.
So I try to put myself in uncomfortable situations, to absorb motivation. I don’t seem to generate it myself. I dislike unfamiliarity, bcause I feel unsure. But it is precisely e insecurity that dispels my complacency, n gives me e drive to open e door. E door is really not locked, n e world outside is really something more desirable than I originally thought.
